do people write blogs to have a place to say all the shit they can't say to peoples faces?

because i think hipocritictly i do,  i pride myself in saying exactly whats on my mind whenever i please. 

but i have discovered that this is impossible without hurting people, loosing peoples trust, and making situations awkward.

i am still not sure why all this bothers me now, why not before?

oh shit. 

thats right,  ahha in the midst of writing this i have realised it is because:

I AM TRYING SO FUCKING HARD TO NOT PISS YOU OFF AND STAY ON YOUR GOOD SIDE BECAUSE YOUR LEAVING AND 

AND 

AND 

yes.