good mood.

Be honest; name of the last person to text you?

mel CHAPMAN

This time last year what was your relationship status?

singleeee

What does the 15th message in your inbox say?

its a FB alert. "TJ staples to you: ok everyones leaving make sure hes ok for me deal?"

When was the last time you were in a car with someone besides family?

sunday

Have you told anybody you loved them today?

i think i have ahah

Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?

hells yeah.

What would your name be with the first three letters?

sam or liz. pretty much the same HAHAHAHA

Do you want to see somebody right now?

fuck yeah. 

When was your last kiss?

lol nah.

Think back to the last person you held hands with, would you kiss them?

pretty sure it was izzy so... HELL YEAH

Who sits in front of you in math class?

othe asian guy? idk his name lol

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?

english lololol

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?

mum...i think.

Your best friend needs you at 3 am, do you go help them?

i'd be there in 5 no shit.

Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friends?

ohh yeahh

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?

oooooo idk man...

Is the last person of the opposite sex you texted single?

have no idea, i didn't know him.

What does your last text message say?

"aw!! thats awsome!!"

Where do you want to live when you are older?

london.  or naenae  JOKES lolol

How many cell phones have you had in your life?

4

Has a boyfriend/girlfriend ever put alcohol/drugs before you? 

not a bf, but close mates. suks hard

Do you like when people call you things like "baby" "babe" or "hun"?

depens aye

Do you believe that love lasts forever?

pfft

Is it okay to kiss people when you're single?

yeah lol so long as there single too 

Have you ever broken anyone's heart? 

nahhhhhhh. well idk but lol if i have

Is there a person that will always have a place in your heart?

of corse!

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?

lol everyone

Your ex best friend shows up randomly at your house, what do you say?

"SUP GEE"

Does sex mean love?

LOL

Have you ever fallen asleep on someone?

ugh probs

What was the first thing you did this morning?

went on FB haaahhahaha

Do you believe ex's can be friends?

yeah, after space totally. i've seen it.

Was last night terrible? 

nope

Have you ever met anyone who turned out to be amazing?

hell yeah, right after i met someone who was a fucking asshole so it was awsome.

Have you ever slept on a table?

nah

Do you have any bruises right now?

dont think soi

Where is the last guy/girl you held hands with?

probs at home?

Do you have a problem with bisexual, gay, or bi-curious people?

nope.

Do you use hearts like this <3 a lot?

na they gay, only if they turn into real cool ones like this ♥

What were you doing at 12am? 

watching tv

Is anyone over-protective of you?

nah

Have you ever made someone so mad that they broke something?

yep

What color is your iPod?

black

What color is your toothbrush?

i dont remember MAN that sounds bad lololol

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around now?

yep and i'm fcuking glad.

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?

summer

Do you like snow?

hells yeah

Have you ever liked someone older than you?

yeah, i always do.

Are you multi-tasking right now?

probs. i am very skilled.

Do you ever listen to country music?

lol nah

Do you think you are a good person?

yeah, sometimes

Do you get mad when people smoke around you? 

only when i don't have any and no one offers me one. faggots

Is life good or bad? 

life is life. 

Are you happy with where you are relationship-wise now?

fuck off. 

Are you the type of person who always needs to be in a relationship?

nah

Do you want a tattoo?

yeah

Could you go a day without eating? 

probs its not as hard as you think. 

How would you feel if your last ex fell in love with someone else?

probs not.

Are you currently looking for a significant other?

meh, 

Does the person you like, like you back?

probs not. but alg!

When's your birthday?

9th march

Are you imagining anyone naked right now?

nah aye lololol

Who would you do anything for?

my threesome and the group

Do you miss anyone?

tj

Would you hug the last person you hugged again?

i don't remember who it was. 

Do you have a best friend?

i hope so. 

Are you in the middle of texting someone?

nah. FFFFFF UUUUU MEL

Do you think things will change in the next few months?

fuck yeah, its gonna be weird!

Who was the last girl you talked to? 

georgia haha

confused.

I just realised how much it would kill me if all my friends we're against someone i loved(in a relationship with)  makes me feel really horrible inside knowing i was one of them. 

But. On the other hand i'd prob question what they were saying, wouldn't you? I mean they are your friends, they know you better than anyone and for some reason they do not like your bf/gf. So in all honesty i don't feel that bad anymore because you seem to think your the only one that matters. Me? i could never do that.  my friends are my whole world. they are everything. i listen to what they say because i care what they think. i know, since they are my friends that they want me to be happy and why would they want anything else. 

so in conclusion, yes. i would question a relationship if my friends had a problem. 

but before i did anything stupid and rash or hurt people. I would calmly listen to their side of the story and go from there. 

idk why this came up, and its not what everyones thinking. 

I guess i am guilty of writing what i really want to say to someones face again =/  eh well. It better getting it out here, then hurting more people. 

pissed.

shot for screwing up half the plan !

pretty much the worst thing you could do and you did it. 

now let me sit here and be pissed off and like normal think of ways to fix it. 

Maybe,

you'll like me back. 

and,

maybe,

you'll like, like me...

as not just a root.

tired.

Missing someone isn't about how long it has been since you've seen them or the amount of time since you've talked. It's about that very moment when you're doing something and wishing they were right there with you.

freaked out.

"I am so fucking shit scared of you" 

how do you tell someone that?

More importantly. How do you tell their bf thats how you feel.

ill.

Man, i wish i could be straight up with everyone.

But i just feel really mean.

We keep asking people if we look intimidating, but i actually think we are. (espleshly me)

i'm pissed off by people so easy that i really don't like many people outside my group(s).

i've created this massive wall around me so i'm safe and no-one can touch me. 

these walls are built by trust.

so if anyone (ANYONE) breaks my trust...

their gone......

The real freaky thing is, its true. 

e.g. jenny 

=/

i miss you. 

do you miss me?

giddy.

I know i've got to play it cool,
but its so goddamn exciting! 

cheerful!

new new new

happy happy happy

:D 

better.

Hi you're name is? lizzie Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex? hellz yeah Tell us about your best friend? if its fucked up- he's seen it. hes also showed you it and told you about it till you know it off by heart. You see your ex and he/she tells you they miss you & you say? pfft you gay. When you're bored in class, what do you usually do? get out my ipod. start acting real sercasticly intrested. If you are being extremely quiet what does that mean?i'm thinking. really hard. or i don't know what to say so i'm still thinking really hard. What are you supposed to be doing right now? going to bed.  Have you kissed one person more than 10 times in 2009? probs :( Do you think anyone has feelings for you? nahhh Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with? TYMON xD If someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them?  I really dunno, i think i'd suggest a break and then decide.  Are you happy with the way things are going? i think so.  Are you wearing jeans , shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? nope ha Do you believe teenagers can be in love and stay in love? yep. i've seen it. What were you doing at 2am last night? sleeping. Do you always answer your phone? call? mostly. i NEVER answer the home phone. Who is the last person you got a text from? georgia. Are you waiting for anything? yeah, in a way. Do you look older than you are? nope. apparently i look younger. yuss. not. Have you ever wished on a shooting star? nah, i never seen one. What's your favorite memory of all time? me & tj walking down his old street smoking a j each.  idk but this is the most happist i think i can remember being. Did you have any unread text messages when you woke up today and what did it say? "hey man what do you have next?" Do you think about the past? alot. try not to its rather gay. What did you do last nite? was it good? walked to video eazy got out wall.E watched it, fell asleep. When's the last time you cried? last night. Would it be more likely of you to fail Science or Math? science. hands down ahha Kill the spider or let it out? FUCKING STOMP ON THAT SHIT URGH GROSS. Are you nice to everyone? nah. some people don't get what they have done wrong and/or are really fucking slow. Do you think you will have the same best friend a year from now? there is no-way of answering that. knowing him, there is no possible way of knowing.

dear god.

emma cole says:
 do nose rings strech you're nose hole?

determined

I can't believe i'm really actually saying this:

But i want my tattoo now, 

-that was not the thing i couldn't believe, the reason why is.

I WANT TO FEEL REAL

i want to have something be but into me that will still be there tomorrow, 

and the next day

and the next day

and the day after that.

just to prove i am infact 

alive?

holding on

one day i will be okay, and i know i will come, soon i think. if i know myself well enough.
its happened before thats how i know its comming, and its gonna happen when i'm sober and it will be fucking amazing. the thing is i can wait for it though, i think it will be a while yet but just knowing its on its way is good enough. i wouldnt want it to happen straight away. that would fuck too much shit up aye.

on edge, anything could set me off.

i'm gonna go round to Video Eazy and get Wall.E out, i hope its open, or might cry.

You're dying, you only have time to listen to one last song. What is it?

faith by A day To Remember

Ask me anything

If your life was a novel, what would the title be?

Oh Dear God or I Have To Pee

Ask me anything

What's your favourite item of clothing?

black tights

Ask me anything

What's your biggest regret?

being young and dumb, and screwing up something that would have been amazing.

Ask me anything

What personality trait do you hate most?

unreliable

Ask me anything

the day after

it's actually like I have a whole new perspective on everything. I'm more careful and take my time before rushing into things. ether that or I've just switched onto auto pilot and I'm still just rolling with it. last night I was full on in auto pilot I know for a fact. I didn't remember thinking or feeling anything once I was in the car I was just focusing on this one thing and didn't see anything else around me and you know what. it all worked out. everything I did was right and everything was as I expected. I am very freakaly very very very calm.

worried

I am worried about you young one, and I want to help in anyway I can but you won't let me =\ I love you and I want you to be happy. please let me help please

do people write blogs to have a place to say all the shit they can't say to peoples faces?

because i think hipocritictly i do,  i pride myself in saying exactly whats on my mind whenever i please. 

but i have discovered that this is impossible without hurting people, loosing peoples trust, and making situations awkward.

i am still not sure why all this bothers me now, why not before?

oh shit. 

thats right,  ahha in the midst of writing this i have realised it is because:

I AM TRYING SO FUCKING HARD TO NOT PISS YOU OFF AND STAY ON YOUR GOOD SIDE BECAUSE YOUR LEAVING AND 

AND 

AND 

yes.

I don't know what i'm doing,
99% sure i'm so fucked up in the head.
Nothing. NOTHING seems weird anymore.
Nothings Fucked up, or Gross.
Nothing is out of the picture, and your wildest dreams are possible.

actualy thats just gay.  scratch that.
i'm so fucked up. 

idk =/

1 week

i wish my cellphone number would change,
i'm telling you, if my number was not my name and i didn't change it to that myself
i would totally right now ring up and change the number.
i think people should, every couple of years change there numbers.
idk just seems like a good thing to do, to stop old things from your past creeping up on you.
you know?
cause theres nothing worse then that annoying girl who texts you everyday saying "wht u up2"
 or that gross as guy who liked you 3 years ago you played a prank on but still occasionaly texts you.
its annoying as shit.
also crazy bitches who are ruining my mates life, stop lying. please die now. shot.

worried.

where are you ? 

=/

tired.

"whatever you want ___, i'm tired of defending myself when i've done nothing wrong. Tbh its like fighting with freya. Its also funny you do this to me regularly when i find out almost everyday you've lied to me about something, or just "forgotten" to tell me something. ily but its killing me."

its what i'm going to say, but, i hope it don't come to that again.
:(

Your leaving me here with these children!

What the fuck am i going to do?

They always want to hangout- but when i have other plans they think they should be invited too. 

I am Liz, i have no patience for this shit.

Never have/never will. 

NOW FUCK OFF CHILDREN.

"The boys will lie to protect you. the girls want the truth to hurt


 you. the boys want to walk it through as the girls talk it


 through. boys fight over trust. girls fight over expectations"

this is for you tj.

we. need. to . talk.

sometimes, i look at you and wonder..

"goddamn, what the hell is going though your head right now" you are so complicated to keep up with, so secretive, so sneeky, so selfish, so self-centered, so screwed up, so fucking addictive i just can't for the life of me ever let go. 

you won't understand trust until you've been betrayed. 

You just killed 7 people (oh no)! Time to make your horcruxes! WHAT are they?

1. this wristband thing tj gave me
2. my Princess Bride badge
3. the ring johnny made
4. my BFF necklace
5. my electric blanket
6. my "Cancer" lighter
7. my permanent retainer

Ask me anything

IDONTKNOWWHATIMSUPOSEDTODO

=/

its 11:11 and i wish you were not going to america
that is all

holidayzzz

1. No Love - Eminem ft. Lil Wayne 
2. Cinderella Man - Eminem 
3. Call Me - Shinedown
4. Gay is the new Black
5. Insane early morning phone calls up all night
6. Bud
7. Old Wainuiomata Collage burnt down
8. Movies
9. Curry
10. J-Dawgfairy bread
11. TJ in the boot of Niall's car over whitemans valley road.
12. My sisters boots
13. Avoiding homework
14. Eye makeup
15. Lanzee's tat
16. Naenae bus stop in the rain
17. Ctrl + Alt + Delete Tab
18. Free text&calling 2-3am for telecoms
19. I.T. crowd.
20. J-Dawg

i see you and i automaticly hear your voice in my head, its only your voice theres no-way you can mistake it.  sometimes i am 100% sure i like you, but people physicly do-not want me to, and i guess it turns me off the idea knowing everyone would be really pissed off- that sounds really stupid and really horrible. my friends would be fucked off if they knew i liked you. but i don't. or do i? well.. when i stop to think about it i think of your shut down conversations and things you said and i get really sad. but then i remember our conversations in person and its as if none of that ever happened. anywho. miss you.

why is rose such a pimp? (:

'coz she so black & thugggg.

Ask me anything

my mum just came in and gave me new tights.
- yes normally this would be great.
But there the thick ones i fucking hate, i never wear them. do you see me ware them? AH NAH
so why would you fucking buy them for me?! you fucking idiot.
i have no fucking clue why i am so pissed off about this, but i am.
i calmed down a bit and after checking if maybe she'd gotten the smaller size but she haddn't so took them back to mum and said that she'd got me these ones before and they were TOO BIG. (they fell down) but all she said was "just wear another pair of knickers"
i want to rip her head off.
i really dont see whats so fucking hard about talking your daughter to a shop with her and picking the tights herself.  AFTERALL SHE'S THE BLOODY ONE WHO'S GONNA WEAR THEM.
my mum phully thinks i'm like 8742564782356billion and a half. -na she dose its really sad.
i'm going to blow my nose now. fuck you

i gotta stop smoking drugs.


album is good.  farewell

if i was high, i wouldn't have to feel like this. 

Can't wait till recovery comes out next week,
i'm gonna buy it on iTunes and everything. 
yes i fucking pay for songs. espeshly eminem songs. 

Roadrunner United - Army of the Sun (Lyrics)

i lied, this is my new song. its mad as shit and i know all the words.

- just sayn haha

new song.

LizzieBro@live.com

 o.k. i caved. 

so waht, sometimes the woman have to step up and 

do what the man should have done the whole time- 

that is what woman are for. 

(and making sandwiches but heyy) 

it not like we are just become "BIFFLES" again and read my diarys and whatnot.  he prob wouldn't even want to read them now.  it mostly be bitching. 

I'M TRYING TO PROVE A POINT.

THAT IS WHY I HAVEN'T TALKED TO YOU, 

I'M WAITING FOR YOU TO TALK TO ME. 

me and gee in the STONE AGE

Sometimes i wonder if i even miss you, it seems so long ago your all i could think about.

But now? I don't know, i mean, we used to talk everyday, I skipped school for you, 

i told you straight up to stop  telling me about the girl you liked because it hurt cause i couldn't have you. 

The last time i saw/talked to you was at my party, and I've heard nothing since.

 I've tried communicating but got no reply. Its been 3 months.... 

HOW THE FUCK DID THAT HAPPEN?! 

I'm going to try texting you  one   last   time.

If i don't get a reply if i ever see you again i will treat you like a cunt. 

cause thats what i do. 

mum just dissed me, and told me my top was too low. Normally i would tell her to piss off, but i felt like i just wanted to burst into tears- it took me sooo long to choose this outfit because everything seemed to make me look really fat and ugly.

that was pretty must the most honest thing i've written on here. 

In the most shittist mood right now.

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Brahm's 17th

why do people keep asking me if i have a boyfriend?i'm perfectly happy by myself right now, and the less drama the better.

now shut it.